The unwanted feeling

salam semua,

just to share this feeling, lately i feel very uncomfortable , me myself don't know the reason. It feel like this heart can't withstand the burden anymore. If i have the chance to say it maybe this heart will feel at ease and i can concentrate back to my study. Can u tell how to get rid of these, i have try many time to avoid it, but it just come like a lightning. once the first thunder strike , it only disappear for several second and then come another one. That is how i feel right now, i just want to forget the thing for a long time. I only succeed to forget it just in a short while and then the feeling just come again and add on my burden. Presence of yourself make me lost in this real world. Although you're not so beautiful, but you just make my heart beat so fast when i see you. Beauty doesn't mean anything right, that's why i feel like i have fall to you. to describe yourself is impossible for me because you doesn't have the perfect figure as the others. Like other people you can just describe them just by looking, for example, you have a nice face, just to say the girl is beautiful. For you, i just don't get the right word to describe you. You're too unique that my mind can't think of suitable words,my mouth can't say anything and my tongue can't describe anything about yourself. For me, you just have the perfect combination to be a perfect person for me.

Unluckily, i just can see you form faraway rather than go to you and tell you that i like you. I think it will be better if i keep my feeling for myself. It will really hurt me but the feeling can remain inside my heart. The longer i keep the, the more i feel i'm in love with you. Writing all about this make me feel more frustrated because i can't tell this feeling to you. 

Sometime i think that you stare at me, i don't have the courage to look at you back. Even if i look at you, i force myself to make an angry face so that my true feeling about you can be keep as secret and you will not realize that i like you. Looking at your face make my heart melt on its own. It happen just like you put an ice near a fire. That is how i feel my heart melt. Showing an angry face and pretending to be a bad guy is part of my plan to hide my feeling towards you. How can i do something like that when i really like you. That's cruel. Make other people hurt is not a good thing. If you have been hurt by my attitude, i'm sorry. It just happen like that because i really love you. I don't know if you feel the same as i feel.
I can only wait when is the suitable time for me to express this feeling to you. I just can't hold it for any longer but when i think again about my study, it just block my willpower to tell you. I'm actually looking for the real reason why i like you.  Is this feeling is a test from Allah S.W.T? Are you destined for me? I'm just a weak guy that doesn't know anything about love. That's why i'm keep pushing myself from telling the truth to you. I'm afraid that you are too perfect that i can't bear to hold. InsyaAllah one day, if you is my true love, we will be together. Form this point, i can only recite prayer for you that you will succeed in your life. Make sure you find the right husband for your life. If it is me, we will meet again someday.InsyaAllah.

ssh juga nak buat ayat camnie, lagi2 nk kaitkan dgn agama sikit.. Kna cari ayat yg sebetulnya klu x lain maksudnya. Ini kali pertama wak camnie,,, maklumla bru lps tgk crita Syurga Cinta buat kali ke-5 klu x silap. Tiba2 datang pulak idea yg mcm nie. Terus berasa bersemangat untuk tulis macam nie.
Klau ad ayat yg silap tlg bgtau nnti akn dbtulkn ya......